Entry: Personal Update Sunday, August 20, 2006



I left on vacation - my crummiest one ever. I went north, but I had to come back to Mumbai in 5 days cos my mum is ill. She got 2 kinds of malaria which have lead to multiple-organ failures of sorts. After shifting hospitals and over a week in the ICU at Leelavati - my mum is now on the ventilator and is sedated - passed out. We're all rather caught up with all of this.

I'll be back once my mum comes home. See you all then.

   7 comments

Name
August 22, 2006   01:50 AM PDT
 
Hey, how is your mum?
Barnita
August 22, 2006   05:53 PM PDT
 
Thanks for asking - she's much the same - the Doc says there should be marked improvement over this week. May I know who this is?
Again
August 25, 2006   04:44 PM PDT
 
sorry barnita to hear that - sounds really serious

barnita
"the Doc says there should be marked improvement over this week."

and?
Barnita
August 26, 2006   12:54 AM PDT
 
Instead of improvement there was a set back of sorts that had the Docs flummoxed - but since yesterday - there has been such improvement that she is no longer sedated. But she can't speak yet cos of the pipes in her throat.

The malaria lead to ARDS (Acute Respiratory Distress Syndrome) and so whenever she gets off the ventilator (maybe by mid-week) - she will be very weak. I'm thinking of quiting my job to nurse her back to health - its not an option I want - but there is noone else to take care of her and finding a reliable professional private nurse in India - well - its pretty near impossible, or sky-high expensive if possible.

Things are so bad now Again. Everything is just hanging by a thread. We could still loose her, I could end up jobless, or my Didi could end up jobless. Things never seem to work out right. Just when they are working out - they go bad - always. I'm depressed.
Again
August 26, 2006   02:55 PM PDT
 
barnita

you make me speechless...

sometimes the world looks like ending and you see no way out..

and i know each word i say, must be wrong - but you are my friend, and i can't stop trying to at least not let you alone...

so please excuse - but what do you think would your mother say if you risk your whole life for her? Mothers usually don't care as much about themselves as about their children - and because you are so great i know your mother must be also a great woman - so please excuse, but isn't something like "teamwork" of your whole family possible to help your mother through the hardest time?

"Just when they are working out - they go bad - always"

yes, i know what you mean - at the moment the whole world seems to be doomed but there is that stubborn survival instinct - so please don't give up - you don't have to be glad about your problems, but think of Laotse - even a journey of 1000 miles starts with a step. So please don't stop to do one step after the other

think of the Butterfly effect - sometimes the wings of a butterfly are enough to change the world

"But she can't speak yet cos of the pipes in her throat. "

but she can listen - talk to her

she will hear you and understand you - and that's the best medicine for her - and try true communication because i guess she will be able to reply to you in some way. I remember my father once in hospital - unconscious - i could see him answering through the medical devices (i guess, the ones measuring heartbeats) - and actually, when i have talked to him i saw the rhythm changing. Yes, sure, it's like reading Tarot cards but at least it is a way to communicate

sorry barnita when my words sound like blablabla - but i can't find better ones
Rookie_journo
August 28, 2006   12:29 PM PDT
 
Take Care..
May God give you the strength!

My Prayers are with you.
Barnita
August 30, 2006   02:25 PM PDT
 
Hi Again - my boss is the best - he's told me to take as many days off work as required and if I can I'll work from home. Its real good of him to be so understanding.

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